I did it

i decided to keep my steps after i almost fell to a deep black hole and hang my head in front of my room. I mean after i lost that SNMPTN (hmm i think it's as horrible as that stupid things -__-)
Yeah, i failed and it felt like i got a big punch on my face and huge rock just hit my lovely head then i couldn't feel anything unless i saw an ocean full of my blood! I was hopeless and tried to jumped in to a cliff and..... (ok, its too much ja!) well, that was only in my imagination and the fact is i'm not kind of that stupid human. I'm a virgo!!! Yeah ya'll know that a virgo is full of obsession and spirit, ok. Haha i read it on daily horoscope tweet kekeke~



so, i woke up and kept my steps on the road!!! my next project was become one of POLBAN students. That was my last hope, my last struggle, my last money, my last spirit, my...... (stop it ja!! stop being over key!!) I registered my name and tried to believe in my self that i could passed these.

Crap! But i must passed the test previously. Fine, it was not a big trouble, my friend said that it wasnt as bad as before, so i was totally sure that i could ! On july 14th i went to Bandung, i fought with those spooky question which really freaking me out!!! Yeah, for the first lesson, bahasa indonesia, kay i can passed it..i'm an indonesian, what would i be if i couldnt beat 'em. So, checked! I did it! Next, english! Ahhh c'mon, it's english, it was my first goal in my life, i've been waiting sooooo long to learn this language deeper. I told you i got an obsession with english literature! I'm in love with this course :(( i had a lot of wonderful plans for this, but i should throw out those all cause i've decided to be an accounting -_- damn! but this is my way so i have to take this. Right, i could passed it, it was a little bit easy i think hehe~ Okeyy, next lesson was MATH!!!!! Oh god puhleaze......i'm kind of student who has a little problem NO a super big problem with this lesson! I never hate Math i just can't command my brain to make a friend with this subject. I'm so weak in front of  you Math :'((. Fine, i didnt give up, i did my best and my best was did only 10 numbers (maybe) of 35 questions. Holy crap!!! it wasnt enough girl!!! Okay..i used my brain then i got an idea!!! Yeah, i could use my analysis and feeling to finished those all, so i didnt use the math formula but i used my bright analysis and of course my sharp girl feeling (U.U)9. Hohoho it worked, i could get the answers. Mission was absolutely complete! No, there was another trouble. Accounting and economics -___- fine, i had no problem with accounting remembered i'm a student of vocational high school majoring of accounting but i was like in the end of the cliff faced the economics! crap crap crap. C'mon i havent learnt it in vocational high school!!!! hmmm but after i checked the paper, umm there were only about 3 or 4 questions. yeeee thanks god you are The One! Then i used my analysis and feeling again to did my holy works kekeke~

2 hours 30 minutes have elapsed. I left the room. I left my hope to that freaking test. I left that polythecnic with all of my hopes and wishes, and also my struggle to got my bright future ;)

july 17, 2012. The result was........

yeeeaaayyyyyy POLBAN took me as one of their students!!!!!!! Yeaaayyyyy i'm so happy so greatful really cant believe that my struggles not wasted meaningless XD whereas i was so hopeless cause i couldnt find my name before haha but thats it.. thats my name !!!!!!!!!!!! i did it i did it i did it XD *shaking my butt* haha thanks god for everything you have given to me :* i feel like i'm shaded by your mercy :**** alhamdulillah ;)

POLBAN !!!!!! here your best choice come :D